I hate cancer. All forms of it. It’s touched our family in a bit of a different way. Both of our dogs were diagnosed with cancer on the same day almost 2 1/2 years ago. Kiara was diagnosed with hemangiosarcoma and Kodi with a soft tissue sarcoma. Kiara passed away almost a year after her diagnosis on April 27, 2015.
Kodi has hopefully got one week left with us at the time of this post. We’ve scheduled his final appointment for October 1, 2016 at 9:00 am. How bizarre is it to think that this time next week, he’s gone. We had his home visit THE DAY we moved into our home. He’s literally been in our home as long as we have.
But it’s time. In addition to cancer, he suffers from Cauda Equina and this spinal/neurologic disorder is also taking a toll on him. He’s lost a bit of himself and it’s only progressing faster and faster. He has good days, but his bad days are rough. He has had issues with potty time for awhile, but he now has some mobility concerns. He gets stuck and can’t back out. He slips and can’t get up at times without help. He pants constantly and often is confused. These are all neurological symptoms from Cauda Equina. It’s a horrible disease that I didn’t know about until our Kodi.
His cancer is of course an issue as well. The tumor continues to grow and has had a couple of small ruptures. He currently had another (see above) that is a bit bigger and is more of a bloody drainage than before. He doesn’t appear to be bothered by it, but at the same time – I look at him and wonder how he isn’t, you know. It’s hard (to me, at least) to discern the amount of pain he’s in.
So, if not before, Saturday it is. We’ll send our very first husky across what many pet owners call the Rainbow Bridge. It’s very surreal and difficult to think about as it brings back a lot of emotion about losing Kiara, but again – it’s time. He deserves to go with dignity and as painful as it is for us, it’s our duty to help him.
Soon, he and Kiara will be together again – wooing and playing together as they always did. This time, they’ll both have no more pain and no more illness and will be looking down on us from above.